It totally changed the day!

So.. how is everyone doing? Good I hope! It's been a few weeks since I've jotted some thoughts on the blog. Sorry! We have been like super people making our house even better with paint, and new furniture and I am so excited that June's new play room is almost finished! We are just getting last minute things to hang on the wall and we will be complete! Next step is the yard. Texas Yards are hard enough as it is, but ours is well... ugly and weedy and you feel like you are walking on glass, thankfully I have a husband who seems kind of obsessed with a good yard so he is getting estimates and seeing what it will take to make our yard glisten... on that note, that's the reason for the no posts. Do you care? not sure, but I do. 

OK so the point of this post today. Let's take a step back into history. Yesterday. 

This day was awful.  I hate bragging about June... oh wait no I love it.. seriously though I feel like June has been such an amazing daughter, and I hope I don't hurt anyone's feelings when I say this, but to me motherhood just hasn't been that hard! I said that until Yesterday. Oh yesterday. I hate you. 

I won't go in to much detail, but yesterday was the first day I was driven to tears because I was frustrated. With myself, with June, with my dirty house, with no dinner plans. I just hate feeling so unplanned.  She wouldn't sleep. All she wanted to do was be held. Dishes were still in the sink, and the things I wanted to get done yesterday just didn't happen. It was a horrible feeling. I hate my house being a mess. I hate the feeling of constant laziness and how it's just so mind numbing. Yes, yes it's parenthood and I know these day's are few and far between, but it happened to me. I feel a little embarrassed it happened to me. I was a mess. I felt ugly all day. I admit that I felt like a bad mom yesterday.  

I even officially caved and plopped June down in front of our TV and a bowl full of cheerios, just so I could get some things done around the house. It's not me, I didn't like it, and I totally judge myself for it. 

Dan came home and hugged me tight while I shed a few more tears. He reassured me I was a good mother, and that June would not grow up dumb for how much TV she watched for the day... Oh and P.S. Don't get me wrong, June does watch TV. I'm not that weirdly crazy. I just keep it very minimal and it's NOT an everyday thing! OK record straight! 

Despite the 5am wake up call with only 4 hours of sleep and no nap with a cold. She still made me laugh and Thankfully today she is back to my happy girl. Napping away! I love her so much! 

Here is a little video of her laugh even during the ugliest of days. Oh yes, I do call her Quasimodo because of her little teeth. I watched this video a lot. Her laugh is so contagious and It really did change my day. 

So obviously we made it through the day. We are back to normal and feeling much better. I really wanted to just post the video, but somehow my whole pity story left my fingers and continued to keep typing.I don't expect  pity from anyone. I think it's good to write down bad times too. I am not all about writing butterflies and ponies of life. I like the real things every once in a while. I apologize, in a way that I really don't apologize. Ok. Bye.